Ry

Me

Mon, 29 Jan 2007 12:42:56 GMT

I have kinda forgotten all about my LJ, been ages since i put anything down.

Where do i start....erm.....It's a new year and a loada of things have changed already in the short space of time. Im as good as homeles, with my house being sold and the Jane lady moving to Ayr. Im currently flat hunting in Glasgow, not with much success it has to be said.

Not much else has changed to be honest, im still working away and busy all the time, going out with mates and making a fool of myself, like only i can. Life is alright and big changes coming in the next few months, i guess if i survive them i'll let you know how i get on.

Wow

Sat, 27 Jan 2007 17:19:55 GMT

I do have a LJ !

Happy Happy

Fri, 13 Jan 2006 14:56:25 GMT

Wooooo

Im finally back in business :D

Got a good job and have broadband !

Even tho it is a misserable day nothing can get me down !

Hope everyone else is grand.

Mon, 19 Dec 2005 05:50:05 GMT

Been feeling really crap the past two days :(

This whole Nite shift is really getting to me now. My boss is a complete and utter Bitch! If she pulls me up or anything one more time im going to burst and have a go at her :(

I can't even call her a boss, she has no clue and expects me to know every little thing. One minute it's do this, then it's no do it this way and then it's no you should do this ! She actually said i was taking the piss the other nite cause i took 20 minutes to do something...... I wanted to just slit her throat, lucky i only had my saftey knife at hand :(

Im a nite person anyway anyone that knows me knows this, but im all fucked up now. I can't sleep and when i do get a propper sleep i sleep for 15 hrs. I have like 4 more shifts, but im going to call them and tell them to shove there job!

I've had a really strange nite. At the begining of the year i went to a Concentration camp when i was in Prague, for some strange reason it has been something that i have always wanted to do. I had my heart set on going to see Auschwitz, but it would have been just a bit much, so we settled for Terizen a local on.

It was away out in the middle of nowhere. On getting there the hairs stood on the back off my neck and to be honest i was totally freaked out. It was cold and silent, there where no birds or anything. It was as if you could just sense the horrible things that had taken place there all the years ago :(

Walking throught the prison blocks i was totally shitting it, im not really a scaredy cat or anything, but this totally freaked me out. The cells where pitch dark and there was the shower rooms, just like every film you have ever seen where the gas comes out of them :( While walking through a courtyard my girlfriend at the time (Angela)was behind me and as i turned to urge her to hurry up i saw something walking across the way. Now i don't belive in ghosts or anything, but i did see something. the thing was it wasn't a prisoner or anything it was like a Officer with a long leather jacket, like a SS officer or something. Anyways scared the shit out of me.

Well Tonight i have been getting that feeling back :( It's like something is wrong or something and it's really freaking me out.

Plus ontop of that im feeling very Emo and thinking about how shit i have been to Angela :( I dont deserve anything, im a big dick.

Anyways, if anyone reads this i hope your good and well.

Nite nite everyone sweet dreams,

Ry

The Countdown to X

Thu, 15 Dec 2005 09:03:36 GMT

Bong, Bong, Bong

as my head hits the wall repeatedly

Only 8 more shifts to go is off little joy to me.

christmas is sneaking ever closer and i feel all emotions leave me not for the first time this year.

The first time i have spent christmas alone......... it wont be as bad as spending New Year all alone.......... and somewhere not home. No one to hold or congratulate on the bells, but the bigest glass of alcohol i can find.

*sigh*

You always want what you can't have, Ry. Memories are flooding back to me i thought i had forced away in a dark corner :( I can't sleep for them poping up. I realise how much of a dick i am with each one.

This Christmas all i want is forgiveness and my life back.

I hate this time of year,

All the cards have came up right.

I Ry, the Hermit.

Wed, 30 Nov 2005 17:20:31 GMT

Get paid this week.

And have to go buy christmas stuff :(

I really don't like Christmas time, it's cold, dark and everyone is just so mad running around for christmas stuff :(

Work is only going to get worse and worse uptil the 25th, im just counting down the weeks til the other job starts.

Was in yesterday to fill in my disclosure forms and my boss was telling me how he is a big Biffy fan to :) (I kinda slept in and ran to his office iin 10 mins flat, just threw anything on) Am really looking forward to working with him, he seems like a really nice decent guy. Plus the pay is good :)

I really should customise my Journal, but can't be bothered :(

Anyways have a great day folks,

Ry

Dont forget the Monkey :(

Thu, 24 Nov 2005 16:30:33 GMT

Hello,

It's fair been a while........

Im not sure what to say to be honest, nothing exciting has happend in my life and nothing is going to.

Started a new Job working Nite shift, which is evil and a pain in the arse. I always thought nite shift would be cool being a night person and all, but it's really not. All i do is sleep all the time. I sleep, get up for work, come home and sleep. Even on my days off i sleep. I only realy get one day for myself to do anything and it's a wednesday :(

I really have to just think about the money, think of the Money Ry. I work 12 hrs Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday 7pm til 7am and for they hours i think of all the stuff i want to buy with my money and thats what gets me throught.

I really have no life. Tonight is the first thing i will have done since the start of the month. And all im doing is going to watch a crap (probably) game of 7's in the freezing cold!

I went for a job interview last week and got it tho, so that lifted my spirits slightly. It starts Mid Jan and i'll be working for the government in a year funded Council thing, as you can see i dn't really know much about it or anything, but it sounds great and the boss is a really great guy who can have a laugh and just acts like a normal guy not a full of himself toss like most bosses.

Nothing much else is happening wiht me, just thought it's been a while since been online may as well update somethings.

Going to miss Lizzie, Hope vonnie is all good and Hello Kirsten :)

Hope your all well and having a great time

Ry

Im no longer a LJ Virgin :(

Wed, 12 Oct 2005 13:52:04 GMT

Wooooo !

It's not as exciting as i thought it would be :)

Altho it's about time i started one.

At least it gets Vonnie and Lizzie off my back.

Had a crap few weeks, not done much at all cause of the whole tony thing and with moving up north. I have been up and down so much :( i just hate all the uncertainty. It's weird spending so much time by myself, have had to face upto my problems. I hate being alone much more than i hate myself, it has made me realise that Angela (x) is fucking me about, so i told her to fuck off :( hardest thing i have done, just hope it's for the best.

Anyways im to good for my own good, so we will see how that goes.